“It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. It hurts so much. When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story. I really love this one. When I think that its over, that I’ll never see him again like this… well yes, I’ll bump into him, we’ll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we’ll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost. Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. There’s a moment in life where you can’t recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else’s kisses.”—2 Days in Paris (via lackofskills)
“Buy some flowers, open up some doors.
She needs some tampons, homie go to the store.
Vitamin water, a bottle of motrin,
Teddy bear, candy bar something, a token
of affection, a step in that direction.
‘Cause love is about progress not perfection.”—MURS. (via rae-lasoul) (via treeeey)
“All i know is when you come back to my front door, asking for a chance i’ma just laugh. Reach real deep in the pockets of my pants, grab the love i have for you and throw it in your hands.”—Bleszt (via rae-lasoul)
2608.) I am in denial, because it's easier to turn a blind eye than face it all head on. And it hurts me that you block me out and never respond, did I never mean anything to you? I want to know how your life has gone on without me, and if it's changed. But I tell everyone I never cared.
1948.) I have days where I just want to forget this place, these grades, these assignments, grab your hand, and go on an adventure with you. Just... start running. Because with you at my side, I know that if I ever did, it'd be worth it.
“You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn’t seem to work. And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.”—JoAnne Golden (via creampuff) (via loveishere)
“The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when you discover that someone else believes in you and is willing to trust you with a friendship.”—Ralph Waldo Emerson
WOOW, I guess I never thought that you would pull this kinda shit on me. Honestly, idk what to believe, or who to believe. Just when i feel like I can finally trust a female, you do this shit to me. Frrls though? Like honestly? I really don’t deserve this, esp what I’ve been and am still going through. I thought you were like my sister. Taking you everywhere, hanging out with MY friends, driving you places and not asking for gas money. I guess, in a way, yes you did buy me drinks/food and stuff, but I don’t even care about that right now. LIKE HONESTLY, HOW COULD YOU JUST THROW AWAY A GREAT FRIENDSHIP?? We just had a talk yesterday about me not being able to trust people, and that I’m glad I have you in my life, someone who I can run to at anytime of the day, and you’d always be there for me. And you agreed and said the same thing to me! I don’t get this shit man. Seriously, i’m so freaking done with high school.
As of this point, I only trust 2 people. And you know who you are. For one, they don’t even go to our school, so who are they gonna tell? Two, they’re soooo much more mature, so of course, they don’t start/spread shit. Three, i KNOW forsure I can trust them. Thank you, you two. You know who you are..
Today was my breaking point. Don’t come to me w/ your boy problems, or your girl problems, or when you feel like talking about everyone/anyone. I am no longer here for you. And I no longer trust you. That 100% trust, is now gone. I’m moving on from it, and I hope you learn that you can’t just open your mouth w/ my personal shit. I seriously trusted you.
“I’ve kissed a guy… I’ve kissed guys. I just haven’t felt that thing…. That thing… that moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy, and the only thing in focus is you and this person. And you realize that that person is the only person you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this amazing gift. And you wanna laugh and you wanna cry, ‘cause you feel so lucky that you’ve found it, and so scared that it’ll go away all at the same time.”—Drew Barrymore; from the movie “Never Been Kissed”
who will hold my hand when we cross the street. who will kiss me on my nose and on my forehead. who will bake cookies and sit on the counter eating cookie dough with me. who will build forts with me in my living room when it’s raining out. who will not mind if I sing along to the radio while I drive and maybe join in. who will sit with me by the river in silence and not think it’s awkward. who will help me concoct brilliant and elaborate plans to take over the world. who will love me when I’m sick, when I’m grumpy and when I am sad.
“Because thats what people do… they leap and hope to God they can fly! Because otherwise, we just drop like a rock… wondering the whole way down…"why in the hell did I jump?" But here I am Sarah, falling. And there’s only one person that makes me feel like I can fly… That’s you.”—Hitch.
1. You & your ex – are like enemies. 2. What are you listening to – people typing in class. 3. Maybe I should – get a motherfreaking job! 4. I love – my fam&friends. 5. I don’t understand – school/guys, 6. I have lost my respect for – MY FATHER. 7.I last ate – Uh, I forgot.
IS YOUR/ARE YOU:
1. Is your hair wet? Nope. 2. Is your cell phone right by you? No. 3. Do you miss someone? Cupcake<3 4. Are you wearing chap stick? ALWAYYSSS 7. Are you mad? Naah. 8. Are you upset? Hmmm, sorta.
1. Recently done anything you regret? Sorta. 2. Ever lied? Yes. 3. Ever kicked someone? LAWLLLLLLL. 4. Ever tripped over your own feet? Like everyday!
TODAY HAVE YOU:
1. Have you cursed? yeah. 2. Have you gotten mad at someone? Not really. 3. Had a smoke? Noooo.
Ever wonder if you’re someone’s everything? Hmmm, not really.
Last song played more then three times? I think material things. Or love rollercoaster.
Last person you fell asleep with? Cupcake?
Last time you were really happy? Yesterday.
Ever skip class? I skipped 1st this morning >:]
When do you want to die? When? Idk. After I’ve had a fulfilled life, iguess.
Marriage? What about it? LOL.
Did you take a nap today? Not yet.
Ever think about trying drugs? Not really.
Last car you were in? My LR2(:
What color is your room? Pink -_-
Where are your parents right now? My mom is probably working out or at home.
Could you use some sleep right now? Hmm, maybe a power nap.
Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? Last night(:
Besides your mouth, where is your favorite spot to get kissed? My forehead.
What’s on your bedroom floor? HECKA CLOTHES MAN.
How many piercings do you have? 2, going on 4.
Ever kissed in the rain? Mhm.
Are you a jealous person? Hm, depends.
Any plans for tomorrow? Grandma’s!
Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? Yeah, sometimes.
If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do? My best friend? HAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH, she wouldn’t dare.
Have you held hands with anybody in the past week? MHM!
Last time you threw up? Like monday? Sunday night.
What are you seriously wearing? Seriously….. I’m wearing my Bullhead jeans, w/ my fox shirt.
Do you currently have a hickey? Nosir.
Who was the last person you talked to on the telephone? Cupcake.
What was the last reason you cried? I wish you weren’t such a little brat.
Have you ever talked to someone when they were high? Yeah.
Is there anything that you are craving for right now? I seriously want a cupcake right now.
What did you do last night? Hw, phone, sleep.
Do you drink tea? Some.
Is anyone on your bad side right now? Kinda, but i’m not trippin’ about it.
What jewelry are you wearing? Earrings,&necklace.
Do you clean when you’re upset? Hmm, not really?
Would you ever dye your hair blonde? Hahahhhhahahah.
Any plans for tomorrow? Grandma’s!
What are you doing right now? Aim, tumblr, facebook.
Who was the last person you cried in front of? My mom? Maybe Sean. Idk.
Have you bought any clothing items in the past week? No ):
Have you ever been on television? LOL! No.
Who was the first person you talked to today? My sister -_-
Do you wish you could be a kid again? Not really?
What causes you the most stress? School, or my dad.
Do you lick your plate when you’re finished eating? LOLLLL, if it’s hecka good. Frrls though.
If you ended up in jail, who would be most likely to end up in there with you? MJ, or Sean. ACTUALLY JACKIE! ahahahah.
Were you single on Valentine’s Day? Nope.
What is something you disliked about your day? My sister opened my door and slammed it.
How’s your hair looking? It’s halfup/halfdown. and fuuugs.
Do you think the drinking age should be lowered to 18? I don’t drink.
Do you have people who you can be your complete self around? Mhm.
Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile? Bothhh!
Do you think relationships are hard? Yes, but most of the time, it’s worth it. You live and learn, right?
What did you do for the 4th of july this past year? Hmm, it hasn’t happened yet… But last year, I was in NY.
Do you have a hard time trusting people? Thanks to you Jeff.
You can receive a $500 gift card to one place; which place is it? Haha, idk?
What was something you always got in trouble for as a kid? Not doing my school work! Lazy me.
“But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is… just… moving on.”—He’s Just Not That Into You (via littlemiss) (via loveishere)
Was so busy. Tapex, creek, Tutti fruitti. Nap w/ cupcake, eat, nap again. Drove around to find bel air park. LOL! Then up to a view on Chaboya road. Then MP *BDL practice, to visit cupcake. Then dropped off MJ, and then my house w/ Sean. Geeez. I wasted hecka gas today! &I have no money to fill the gas tank );